
Why must it be expected - no, demanded - of me to surpass my ancestors’ achievements? Why can’t I just be a regular seventeen-year-old, trying to make sense of life? But my path has been preordained, without anyone even asking me what I want. Nobody seems to care that with every push to live up to their expectations, my own dreams vapourize.
- Ellen Hopkins
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Fighting depression is hard when you have no real reason to fight it. Why pretend everything is fine when everything pretty much sucks?
Perfect - Ellen Hopkins
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I do carry extra poundage. But she doesn’t think so, and neither does anyone else. Even the scale keeps trying to tell me one hundred twenty-two pounds isn’t too much for my five-foot-ten-inch framework. But that stinking mirror doesn’t lie. Every time I walk by, it shouts out Hey, Chub. When you going to lose those fifteen pounds of ugly-ass flab? Do you want to stay size four forever?
- Ellen Hopkins
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Breathe in. Breathe out. Lose track of time. Push myself harder. Forget about freshman eyes and banter. Breathe deeper as sweat trickles turn to rivulets, carry away toxins. One tomato, two turkey slices. Fat. Breathe. Burn fat. Forget about the taunts of the mirror and too many hours tangled in sleep
- Ellen Hopkins
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Real control is not putting in more than you can work off. Knowing the exact count and keeping track. Shaving off every extra caloric unit you can without passing out. And the most important thing of all - keeping everyone else in the dark.
- Ellen Hopkins
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The mirror was my best friend. Until it started telling me I wasn’t really pretty enough
- Ellen Hopkins
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When did creating a flawless facade become a more vital goal than learning to love the person who lives inside your skin? The outside belongs to others. Only you should decide for you - what is perfect.
- Ellen Hopkins
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